Glad to See You Go.

Dear Julia,


     You could say this is a good-bye letter; you probably won't ever read this, but I just need to say it. Everyday I think of you and sometimes I hope you're thinking of me too.  I still think what was meant to be, hoping that one day we'll be together again. Through much difficulty though, I have finally realize that if keep hoping, I'll only end up being more hurt.


    I have to say this was a pretty interesting three months. School is much more difficult than I expected. My grades slipped and I was heartbroken. For the past three months I was wondering what happened. Was it my fault? Did I do something? Everyday I would try to figure out what happened and why it happened. I still haven't figured it out, haha...my friends told me it wasn't my fault (even with all the breaks). They told me your action were too drastic, the breaks were nothing, and you had another reason onto why you you took me out of your life. 


    I died every time when someone mentioned you in a comment. And every time I see a picture of you, my heart would jump (I know I'm such a weirdo). On the good side I met some of the most amazing people here :) I kind of sense that the friendships I make here; they'll be lasting ones, well at least I hope. I've grown as a person...I see what I need to do; thanks to you.


      I think there were other reasons why you did those things...but if it was my fault for being the one that made you break up with me, then I'm sorry. Sorry I couldn't be the best boyfriend; sorry I had to put you through all of those breaks it must've been hard...and even though people said that the breaks were nothing I feel horrible for putting you through it; sorry I couldn't go on more dates with you; sorry if I wasn't understanding when it came to you; sorry if I ever hurt you in anyway (I'm a guy...I'm oblivious). Except for the breaks, I just hope you understand that I tried. You may not believe it, but I really did...I was naive, still am, but I used everything I had to make you happy or what I thought would make you happy. Sorry I couldn't make you happy.


     I hated the fact that we broke up. Don't get me wrong, I wanted the best for you, I still do...but I hated that it ended the way it did. I raged...a lot haha. I don't  know, I just hope that the reason why you did the things you did was because you thought it was best for us. You still cared for me...trying to ease the heart break. Well, that's what I hope to think...


You have to admit, it was a fun relationship; I'm glad that I met you, even though it didn't end as I pictured. One day, I hope we can look each other and be friends again. Until then, I hope you are doing well. I hope you are looking for your happiness, because I'm working on mine right now :)




     If I do see you, I hope to look you in the eye and say thank you. Thank you for being my first. Thank you for caring for me. Thanks for all of those great time. Without you I wouldn't have realized what I needed to do and what I have to do to reach my goals. You made me stronger. Best wishes Julia, there'll always be a place in my heart for you.




-Love,
James